Friday, June 26, 2009

BASEBALL TIME




So - I'm heading to ATL today - first time there - crazy 'eh?? Anyways - Ciara and I have not started our baseball weekend tradition! This will be our second annual time. Pretty much - its an excuse for us to go watch baseball and see each other since our normal lives tend to block us from that.
School is still kicking my butt. My proposal is not finished, but is started and I am feeling more confident about it now then before. I have 8 sources but need about 14 more :( I am ready to be out of school and in a classroom.

So this week, I got called out on a lot of stuff. I was told that I have become a very negative person. That I did not use to be this way and that maybe that is why I was so unhappy. And the person to call me on this - really would know. So I got to thinking that maybe he was right. I use to think the WORLD of Knoxville. And that my life was amazing. I had lost that. I had lost the joy that I had in my own control and life. Least to say - today (and everyday) I am working on seeing the positive in my life. There is so much out there to do and see. So many people to meet. And if you pick a certain group to judge or walk away from - you are only limiting yourself.

Here's to being positive :)

Friday, June 19, 2009

Once so hard to speak now so easy to play around

For the first time in a very long time, actually since Eric, I feel completely out of control on a situation with a boy. Now first are foremost let me say that I don't think that anything will come from this boy, but there is SOMETHING that I just want to know. Something in me says that I need to get to know him more, that there is something in his life that I can learn from. I've been thinking, a LOT lately, which is a bad thing if you know me. I over think and ponder everything.

All I know is I don't know anything it it kills me....

On the other half of my life :) - School is insane right now. I feel as though I can't keep my head above water. I refuse to sink, if you know me at all failing is NOT an option!

Ok so my Ashely Warren just called and its been FOREVER!!! Night loves!