Friday, June 26, 2009


So - I'm heading to ATL today - first time there - crazy 'eh?? Anyways - Ciara and I have not started our baseball weekend tradition! This will be our second annual time. Pretty much - its an excuse for us to go watch baseball and see each other since our normal lives tend to block us from that.
School is still kicking my butt. My proposal is not finished, but is started and I am feeling more confident about it now then before. I have 8 sources but need about 14 more :( I am ready to be out of school and in a classroom.

So this week, I got called out on a lot of stuff. I was told that I have become a very negative person. That I did not use to be this way and that maybe that is why I was so unhappy. And the person to call me on this - really would know. So I got to thinking that maybe he was right. I use to think the WORLD of Knoxville. And that my life was amazing. I had lost that. I had lost the joy that I had in my own control and life. Least to say - today (and everyday) I am working on seeing the positive in my life. There is so much out there to do and see. So many people to meet. And if you pick a certain group to judge or walk away from - you are only limiting yourself.

Here's to being positive :)

Friday, June 19, 2009

Once so hard to speak now so easy to play around

For the first time in a very long time, actually since Eric, I feel completely out of control on a situation with a boy. Now first are foremost let me say that I don't think that anything will come from this boy, but there is SOMETHING that I just want to know. Something in me says that I need to get to know him more, that there is something in his life that I can learn from. I've been thinking, a LOT lately, which is a bad thing if you know me. I over think and ponder everything.

All I know is I don't know anything it it kills me....

On the other half of my life :) - School is insane right now. I feel as though I can't keep my head above water. I refuse to sink, if you know me at all failing is NOT an option!

Ok so my Ashely Warren just called and its been FOREVER!!! Night loves!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

So it's been a crazy week!! Lots of training, working but not enough homework. Once I finish this, that is the goal for the day! A GREAT work out & knocking out at least 8 pages of my research proposal. I'm on here first because I just read a great blog by my friend Carissa. First, let me say that her strength in Christ is AMAZING to me!! She is so connected, and that is what I am looking for. Her confidence is outstanding too! She is possibly one of the most BEAUTIFUL women you will ever meet, inside and out.

This week she had a quote up on facebook --
"A woman’s heart should be so hidden in Christ, that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.”

I have heard that quote, but had forgotten about it. And I think that I couldn't have come across it at a better time then this week on Carissa's page. I need to fix my relationship with Christ so that my only focus on a guy is my love, relationship and connection with him.

That's really all I had to state this morning!! I'm starting to learn more and more about all this blog business! Like the labels and such. Enjoy the day loves!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Be Still

What a past few weeks it has been!! I am getting to a point that I feel so lost in my own life I am not sure where to go next. The other day someone told me that I was selffish for saying that I did not want to stay in Knoxville. I love Knoxville and the good friends I have here, but I don't see myself staying here forever. Being 25 and single as the rest of your friends are starting to settle down is hard. I know that I am young and I still have "plenty of time" but who doesn't want someone to come home to every day? Someone to share everything with ya know??

Anyways - signed up to do TRI 201 with Shahin. It will prepare me for my first OLYMPIC distance Triathlon. Crazy 'eh? Who would have thought a year ago that this is were my life would be? Certanly not I and the more I talk to Duane about it, apprently not him either haha. He is doing well. He is still loving Cali. Hanging with kim again and maybe getting a promotion!! I will be thrilled for him, but every one in a while would be good to see him and def talk to him more.

We leave for Jersey in a month. I made a bet with myself - NO DRINKING till Jersey :) Need to stay focused on training and getting into better shape. I need to also focus on school more, I'm already behind the curve and its only the 3rd week :( And most important of all, I need to get focused on CHRIST again. I need to find the faith I once had. I need not worry about any other person.

Be Still, And Know that I am GOD - PSALM 46:10